Drabble: Away
May. 19th, 2006 08:35 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
libra_travellerTitle: Away
Author: libra_traveller
Sequel: Come Back
Rating: G
Summary: John thinks while he’s gone.
This sucks. I wish that I hadn’t had my freak out while the Daedalus was near Earth, then maybe they could have dragged my sorry behind back to Atlantis. The way things are now, I’m in a Puddle-Jumper between the stars trying to figure out why all of a sudden I couldn’t take it anymore and just had to leave.
It’s not like things had spiraled out of control or anything. Actually, everything was perfectly normal, nothing bad happening, nothing to take care of. Nothing, just waiting for it to all go wrong. That’s when I snapped. I couldn’t stand the waiting, I couldn’t stand it at all.
I’m not like you. I don’t know how to panic when necessary and be calm when everything’s okay. Instead I’m calm all the time. No matter what’s happening, I’m perfectly calm and reasonable and I know who to go to for help. And that’s usually you. But see that’s the problem, for someone who’s always calm, there comes a time when, well, you lose it, like I did.
Here alone in space, the only thing I’m really missing is you. I’m missing your eccentricities, and the way your face lights up when you discover something. I liked spending time with you every day, and now I’m away, and I don’t have you. I don’t understand what went through my mind when I voluntarily left you. But I can’t come back, not for you, because things are going to be the same if I return, and I don’t know if I can be that calm person again.
Author: libra_traveller
Sequel: Come Back
Rating: G
Summary: John thinks while he’s gone.
This sucks. I wish that I hadn’t had my freak out while the Daedalus was near Earth, then maybe they could have dragged my sorry behind back to Atlantis. The way things are now, I’m in a Puddle-Jumper between the stars trying to figure out why all of a sudden I couldn’t take it anymore and just had to leave.
It’s not like things had spiraled out of control or anything. Actually, everything was perfectly normal, nothing bad happening, nothing to take care of. Nothing, just waiting for it to all go wrong. That’s when I snapped. I couldn’t stand the waiting, I couldn’t stand it at all.
I’m not like you. I don’t know how to panic when necessary and be calm when everything’s okay. Instead I’m calm all the time. No matter what’s happening, I’m perfectly calm and reasonable and I know who to go to for help. And that’s usually you. But see that’s the problem, for someone who’s always calm, there comes a time when, well, you lose it, like I did.
Here alone in space, the only thing I’m really missing is you. I’m missing your eccentricities, and the way your face lights up when you discover something. I liked spending time with you every day, and now I’m away, and I don’t have you. I don’t understand what went through my mind when I voluntarily left you. But I can’t come back, not for you, because things are going to be the same if I return, and I don’t know if I can be that calm person again.