Wondering is Enough - Original Fiction

[libra_traveller]

Wondering is Enough

I wonder what would happen if I kissed this guy. He’s old enough to be my grandfather. He lost his wife only two years ago yet he’s lived so much of what life’s had to offer. I think that he wants me to kiss him and that he feels the same connection I do. I enjoy every minute I spend with him, all the conversations we have.

I worry though about crossing this line. He is for all intents and purposes a patient of the facility I work for. And he’s here because with his grief so strong he couldn’t take care of himself anymore.

Yet these last few months I’ve watched him take back his life. And I’m self-centered enough to think I had a large part in it. That because I took an interest both in his story and in who he is, that he was able to glimpse what it would be like to be himself again.

I wonder what it would be like to kiss him, but I won’t. I can see that what this man needs more than a new love is just a friend and someone who will remind him to eat. I may be so self-involved to think I had a hand in his recovery, but I’m not selfish enough to sabotage it. I only hope that one day I find someone to love who is as wonderfully intricate a person as he is and who will love me as much as he loved his wife.